Good Morning!

I'm sorry that I am behind on my blog, but I have been painting, working on the website and then family  activities....anyway, I don't have much else going on, but I would like your opinion on my paintings and pick two for me to enter in an artist magazine contest!    Thank you for all the support and hope!    It is healing for me as well to hear your stories.    God Bless and here are a few new photos.    You can also go to Pinterest @ http://pin.it/hP6ZZko or my website www.chronicpainart.com thanks again for all the views and comments.   Well it's only letting me post 1 so visit the links to see more...

Time Heals Nothing.

Well here it is the beginning of a new week.    I have a question? How many of you hear, it's just takes time or time heals everything.    Well, I'm sorry but times doesn't heal anything except maybe a scratch or something physical.     Mentally time heals nothing!    How do you heal your mind when your mind never shuts down?    You go to sleep thinking and you wake up thinking about the things and people you lived for....you not only love them, but you live everyday for them doing the best you can.    I paint because I hope that my art cand speak for me.   My paintings not only relate to me, but anyone who suffers from chronic pain, Post Tramatic events,    These things never leave your mind.   They may sometimes be put in the back of your mind while you are doing other things, but your traumatic events always return and cause continued pain.    I don't know, this is just my 2 cents for whatever it's worth.   I just want other people to understand they are not alone in their thoughts.    I am saying all this tonight because regardless how hard you try to move on it never goes away.   God Bless MW

Did I mention how much I hate time change?

What a day it has been!  I went over to my mom and dads house for Sunday lunch and  I was so pleased to see my boys there!  Made my day!   I love my kids so much, they are my life!  So I grabbed all my computers today while I was in the metropolis of Wolfe City, Texas!   I have no idea where I am going to set all this up in my RV.. gonna have to get creative with my layout... some things may have to go!  It is so nice to be typing on a keyboard and not a IPad,  I love my IPad, but the thumbs... wow how they hurt!

I hope everyone had a great weekend and for those on Spring Break, enjoy.... these days it seems everyone has to go somewhere and has to do something.. Why?  Why cant people just learn to relax and enjoy life vs. going all the time.   Time... Did I mention how much I hate this useless thing called time change?  Its spring forward... leave it there, people don't live by the sun anymore, they live by the hours....anyway, I have 3 paintings left before I complete my first collection of 21 paintings titled "Chronic Pain"     I will upload a painting I finished up yesterday later today!    God Bless and I am going to B.E.D.


#chronic pain, #PTSD, #anxiety
MW

When you can't sleep

Sitting by the fire....

As I sit by my evening fire (every night as long as it's not raining) I first open up my conversation with God..for me, when I open up my conversation when I wake up, it doesn't end until I shut down for the day.   I first thank the lord for all my family and their blessed health, for my healing.   I sit by the fire because it is very calming, relaxing and quite. I hear the waves of the lake as they get pushed by the wind and then all at once about 10 RV air conditioners come on, and for me, causes anxiety, I had to leave my fire till it was quite again... Sorry, back to my day.   I love it when my fire pops...I don't know, maybe it's a light bulb for me.    I think about all the things I have felt and been through and I thank him for showing me an outlet!   How to survive and never quit!  Thank you, Bev Williams (mom) for the acrylics paint she gave me for Christmas.    I had told her in the past I wanted to try and paint, and she knew I would never go into Hobby Lobby and get myself!  LOL.  What's funny is now I am seen in there on a regular basis buying canvases and paints.   Of course, there are a gazillion different paint brushes so I always grab a couple to try out....for some reason a few weeks ago I purchased a sketch pad and some drawing pencils and charcoal, why I do not know!   I have never been able to draw anything in my life!    Seriously, it looked like a kindergarten students drawing. LOL again, I also remember filling up a piece of Notebook paper with small spaceships dot dot dot killing other ships and of course Asteroids!    Between, Buck Roger and Asteroinds it was easy to draw ships the looked like a paper airplane!   LOL.  That was Ms. Watson, 5th grade... Okay, I know I ramble....  So, I get home and try to start sketching what I want to paint...the first few went just as I predicted but as I paint, I find myself becoming better sketching.    I'll post a picture of my sketch today for my upcoming painting, as well as a few other pictures.    Anyway, back to my fire tonight, I was thankful for my brother Steven Talley and my nephew Connor Talley for bringing me some good firewood!   I've already gone through 3 cords of wood since November since I have moved the RV here...I will post a few pictures of my garage/studio..  If you look close you will see the piece I am working on to be on display at my Pain Management doctors office, at Baylor, Scott and White, Frisco, TX.    Dr. David Keelen.  One of my few people I consider an angel from heaven.   He helps people heal, but most of all, he sincerely cares about each of his patients care and well being.    Everyday, I thank god for him!  Talking about these things are another checkbox of healing that I am attempting by starting this blog! Below is Titled : 25 Years.. It is about half way completed and I am only showing on my blog.    When it's complete I will share with all social media.   I hope that my messages conveyed in my art are a blessing to everyone who is suffering, or recovering from an extended period of Chronic Pain, dependency or Invisible Illness.  Picture taken from my RV looking at my mediation station.   LOL   Don't Make fun of the $5 garage sale chair my youngest son bought from a neighbor a couple of years ago....love it for comfort!   When the recliner doesn't help I go to this thing and it is, for me, the best, to at least slow down the pain when it hits!     I ask for prayers because I believe they work!    Thank you, God Bless, here come the AC's again!    It was 81 degrees here in Texas today and muggy!   Gotta go!  Goodnight!

Selfie

" Selfie ". Matt Williams Accurate image of how Pain made me feel every single day,  all day and all night....

Migraine... Matt Williams

"My Invisible Pain". 11" x 14" invisible disabilities, disability you can't see.   Matt Williams.   This piece speaks for itself.   I show all my pain no one can see.

The Root of All Pain is Love and Happiness

"The Root of ALL PAIN is Love and Happiness".  Matt Williams...    White is pain, red is love and happiness, Grey symbolizes change....   There is a mist of red as the love and happiness disappear instead of growing and blossoming .   18" x 24"

You Cannot See How I Feel

" You cannot see how I feel" Matt Williams In this piece I can see out and a Happy Life, but inside the pain is to great to do anything...

Please note, all photos are taken with a IPad vs a professional!

Chronic Pain Art

Original Paintings by Matt Williams... For those of you who don't know me, here is a quick short bio.My name is Matthew Williams and I have 3 awesome kids, a son in law and 1 grandson! I have suffered from Chronic Pain, Migraine Headaches, Depression, Anxiety, and PTSD for 26 years after a head injury while serving in the US Navy. That along with other traumatic events, I can't even to this day talk about. I have been a 100% disabled veteran since 2008 with what I call "Invisible Disabilities". You cannot see my pain and just that one small detail, well, it's very frustrating to say the least and I think that I speak for anyone associated with this group.   People these days are more visual and selfish vs. truly caring and understanding. They look at the outside and everything visually is, I look like a regular guy.... But it's the inside as we all know!  As of March 1, 2017, I can proudly say that thanks to my Pain Management Doctor, in Frisco, Texas, Dr. David Keelen, has me almost completely pain free after what I consider 24 years of torture by being forced to use the VA for my medical needs. I am blessed to help other people who are struggling! It is truly amazing the blessings I receive everyday spiritually, financially, personally and my families health!  Key to my success? Jesus Christ, my lord and savior for everything! My Art: I started painting in January 2017 and have found it to be very medicating for me personally... My first collection of 20-25 pieces will focus on the feelings of my Chronic Pain, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD ect.. I pray my paintings will speak to those who can say, "That is how I feel, someone else does understand my pain." It mentally does help you... I am currently looking for someone who can Print my work so it can be shared at Pain Management Clinics, Hospitals and Offices everywhere.    Some of my work will soon be on display at Pain Clinics in Frisco, Dallas and the Tyler area.. Thank you for the shares and likes.   I will share my paintings on this blog and I hope that you will comment and express what you see and how it may apply to your life....   Let's get it all out!   Please refrain from using profanity and inappropriate dialog.   I hope that we can include children with these same problems too.     Facebook Chronic Pain Group